Uninhibited

Main Entry:
uninhibited
Part of Speech:
adjective
Definition:
free
Synonyms:
audacious, candid, cut loose*, expansive, fancy free, footloose*, frank, free, hanging out*, informal, instinctive, liberated, natural, open, relaxed, spontaneous, unbridled, unchecked, unconstrained, uncontrolled, uncurbed, ungoverned, unhampered, unrepressed, unreserved, unrestrained, unrestricted, unself-conscious, unsuppressed
Antonyms:
inhibited, modest, shy





For the most part this blog is just about that, being uninhibited. I believe long before I had kids there was that uninhibited side of me that was on the verge of breaking out until I had kids and got an office job and felt as if I needed to be a little more conservative in my looks. I walked around in the average clothes, the average hair style, and in no way expressing that artsy inner self that lay to rest for many years. I conformed to what was exceptable to society afraid of making any bad impressions. But I am coming to realize, how boring. There is this inner self that is bursting to come out. I think that in all my new self realizations that this is just another chapter.



So for a few awhile now I have been jokingly talking about tattoos and coloring my hair some funky shade of this and that. Not because I wanna be different but because how fun!! Just to step out of what I have been for the last few years. Why not? What is keeping me from it, other then what will people think. Brian and I have been talking about even just our clothes in general and how they totally don't represent our personalities at all. I think a lot of people do this. We become who society thinks we should be and look down on those that are different in any way from the norm. We have a fear of standing out, drawing attention to ourselves, letting people in. Pretty soon, I think we lose ourselves in some way. I am not suggesting that everyone should go out and color their hair and get tattoos and wear funky clothing. I am just saying that we shouldn't hesistate to adapt our own personal style, or to keep in a part of our personality that could shine if we would let it for fear of what in the world people would think. I have to commend those that have gotten this way earlier than I have. Way to go! I remember going to Hyvee for some grocery shopping and the clerk behind the counter had the coolest blue hair and peircings. She was absolutely beautiful. This was years ago and yet I remember thinking, I wish I could be like her. Not look like her per say, but be bold enough to step out of the restraits I had kept myself in.



So, I am thinking this will be gradual, but I have a hair apt. set up for this coming Tues. Do I go Blue or Purple, I don't know yet. And, contrary to what some think in my family, I am thinking of getting a tattoo behind my neck, of what yet I don't know. Watch out world, I am stepping out!