OH Depression

This morning I woke up to a horrible crick in my neck. I got little sleep and I feel a bit on the grouchy side. You know, lately for me, or actually within this last year, I wake up never knowing how I am going to mentally feel that day. Call it depression, severe moods swings, whatever. Today is one of those days where I feel like life has thrown me on the ground and trampled me beneath it. Why? I don’t know, but its days like today where I fight unreasonable thoughts that go through my head, and a bit of paranoia. It doesn’t take much to make me cry, and I just want to sleep all day. P.M.S.? Nope, not yet. Depression probably, but I do sound CRAZY don’t I? Have I sought out help to get those lovely anti-depressants drugs to make it all better? Um No.

I have to say that lately, I have been feeling pretty good. I didn’t expect this mood swing, but it crept up on me. You would think that because I can reason this out in my head that I can then make it all better. But it is a battle I will fight all day. So why haven’t I sought professional help? Well, Brian, my husband, doesn’t believe in medication as a resolution to the problem. I tend to agree with him a bit. My resolve has been to eat healthy and exercise. It has worked so far, except yesterday and the day before I didn’t eat as healthy as I have been and so perhaps that is why I am dealing with this mood swing today. And well, the exercise? I haven’t made it there yet, but will soon, very soon.

So today, I am going to clean myself up, look the best that I can, get out of the house and breath in some fresh cold air. That is the only way I know how to make myself feel better and hope for a happier tomorrow. Maybe a trip to the Chiropractor would help some too.